April 23, 2005
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Thanks for all your concern. I felt better Monday night, but the rest of this week unfolded to reveal bad news after more bad news. I’m too shaken to write anything right now. No one is sick, no one is dying, no one’s heart is broken, so its not tragedy. It’s just a stupid optimistic me, getting my bubble burst and as always, being so damned surprised about it. I am embarrassed and sick to my stomach about how foolish, how naive, and how completely delusional I can be. I don’t really know if I can write anything right now. Please bare with me—I might feel up to something later on this week. And I may or may not be able to explain myself then.
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but sometimes the choice to remain a little naive or become jaded so you won’t get hurt again. i vote for forgiveness when you’re ready and a little sense of inner peace that the hard world hasn’t gotten to you yet. so hang in there. life sucks sometimes, but it’s not usually your lack of jadeness that makes it so- it just feels bad right now! so don’t explain if you don’t want- there’s lots i don’t talk about here! but know you’re not alone!!!
I’m sorry to hear about whatever your difficulty is. Just know that the Xangahood wants nothing but the best for you.
Thanks for your take on the music of the ’90s on my blog. You may be entertained to know that at least one source looked at Soundgarden’s “Black Hole Sun” as a metaphor on the Christian church’s straying from teaching the fundamentals of the Bible. It’s true! In his book, Virtual Faith: : The Irreverent Spiritual Quest of Generation X, Tom Beaudoin saw that clip as a bit of a parable about how straying from tenets of faith can lead us into empty materialism. Now I think Tom has his heart in the right place, but I’m just not seeing that in the video.
Just hang on, it’ll all work out in due time. Don’t worry about trying to explain yourself if you don’t want to. Keep chuggen along. Peace Out and Take Care.
Hey, I hope you and Shaun are doing alright with whatever it is that’s going on. I hope things work out for the best, and that you are okay.
Best,
Laura
Be kind to yourself and don’t blame yourself for whatever happened. Optimism is a rare quality to be cherished and nourished. I hope you will be feeling better this week. Being devastated by life can happen to anyone. Fate is fate and you aren’t to blame.
I truly care.
Lynn
Just let me know who did it to you. I’ll come beat them up.
I’m with sunshineboy78: a case of Old Style, a carton of Luckys, and no questions asked.